I dont want to remember today Poem memories

Memories

Battered and Bruised is how my heart feels
to you my Lord I kneel
please make the memories go away
I dont want to remember today
remembering how he treated me
reminds me of bruises only you see
his angry words cut so deep
so many nights I cried myself to sleep
how could he not see
why did he do these things to me
remembering the silent treatment he gave me
never accepting my apology
please make the memories go away
I dont want to remember today
the memories hurt inside
so many times he lied
used me to fill his lust
only causeing great mistrust
the memories I cant erase
when I remember I see his face
he did not value me
only made me feel unworthy
how could he cause me so much pain
many times he made me feel insane
please make the memories go away
I dont want to remember today
why could he not love me
why was I not worthy
I lived in fear
everything became so clear
you Lord helped me to see
now that were apart
I feel an empty heart
it feels like its all a dream
but then I remember all the things he did to me
please make the memories go away
I dont want to remember today
please lord I pray please make them go away

07/24/2010

I think they will always be there..................what hurts is that ,I grieve that family life,but know right now we cant be together..and how can you want that when you cant allow yourself to live in a controling environment.

Thinking of you, Grace. ♥

Jen
I have days where I feel so alone and then I have days when the reality hits me and I know I will be ok..I have too much compassion for certain people my(ex) for paying for his actions I know I did the right thing and stood up for myself.I know Im not responsible for others actions.I will always have good and bad days like everyone does.I will get thru this.

wow grace beautiful poem and so pwerful, thanks for sharing, and hope you are doing ok.....and gla dyou are away from him.

love
maureen