I'm really having a hard time right now.I'm crying and seem to be messing up every thing I do in every way.I feel nobody understands my pain from family issues a recent nervous breakdown an having to live with someone.I have bipolar which don't make life easier.I just got out of the hospital less than a month ago.I was living out of state an thaught moving home to family would make things easier.The thing is nobody seems to understand the hurt an despair I feel.I tried to kill myself an scared I'm headed there again.I just don't feel I belong anywhere in this world.I also have a child married who has taken my grandchildren after me raising one of them and it's tore me apart.I need people who have faced things as I am to support me.My bipolar is a big factor I'm mood bouncing constantly.
I'm sorry about everything you're going through. I too just recently got out of the hospital for a suicide attempt due to bipolar. Noone in my family really knows about it and it is seriously frustrating and the stress is making the disorder stronger than my meds. I don't know everything you are going through due to being only 22 but I know you and me belong in this world just as much as anyone else does. We are always here and we care.
Jassy thanks for your encouragement.It feels good to know your not alone.There is nobody in my family who understands the up and down days I have.It may be wrong to say but my family sometimes gives me the feeling they are tired of my behavior.I'm taking meds to control it but it don't always completely work for me.You are right about belonging in the world to.I just act on impulse at times an get so low I attempt suicide.I have came close to dying about four times in the past two years.I have nobody other than this support group cause nobody understands.They say it's an act of attention and it's really not.I really do thank you and I'm sorry to hear about your recent attempt as well.
Kis do your best to stay focused on you & not think too hard about what has happened because your starting anew again & you have experience on your side sweetheart. You may not see it yet but it was possibly a good thing to move to your sisters just to get a better perspective on yourself for a few so see the good side of your decision as it is a wise one for now.
Love April
kis
u are gona make it thru this time cos u know what u have faced in the past and i have faith in u totally to come back and be where u want to be
what happened to cuttin yourself some slack and being kind to u for just five mins do something just for u today even if its have a good weep about what u dont have and get ready to move forward
love D
hey-I don't know how old you guys are but if you're lucky enough to have figured out the bipolar part you'll get the right meds.I pray none of you have suffered their entire life before getting help-a great therapeutic way to examine your feelings is this site.Nothing you do to yourself can't be undone..except suicide.what things do you have that are positve?I try to focus on that-do you have loved ones?Do you have healthcare?You can't just "cheer up" as the uniformed will tell you.Don't try to explain things to people just focus on what to do for yourself.The ones who really care won't question your motives-and will be there for you.And domestic is right-be kind to yourself and if you need to cry do it till you feel better-or want to stop crying,whichever comes first.My thing is whenever I feel really sad I listen to the blues and it makes me feel good-that music was created to let those feelings out-might not work for you but hey-what could it hurt?A lady I know who is bipolar also wastalking with me and I 1/2 jokingly said "when you're bipolar life has it's ups and downs!" she said "but not for long!"How wonderful it is that we can share our problems and lessen them;share our joys and increase them.This site has been more help to me that I imangined-we're here for each other,understand what you're going through and some of us (me) have made it through-believe me 5150 is a hard tag to get rid of!So hang on kis,jasy ,april and domestic-we can do this.keep posting and somebody here will support you -thanx for reading this lengthy post,and God bless
I really appreciate all of you for supporting me.April you have supported me for a long time and saw me through some difficult situations.I'm forever grateful.I am trying to look at the bright side of things.I'm not allowing my daughter to keep me so down I can't get out of bed at one point I was.I'm simply trying to deal with one thing at a time.It is still a struggle but knowing I have all you to support helps more than you think.I thank you all so much.
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