I just found out on 7-11-11 that I am a carrier of genital herpes. What I thought was just a rash turned out to be my nightmare. I hate to admit it, but I had 2 sexual partners at the time and now I'm afraid. I'm not sure who I got it from. Although I will know soon. I'm still scared. I think I'm more angry at the fact that I learned that there was no way to avoid it. Neither of them showed symptoms. And although using protection can help, it doesn't prevent it?!? I don't remember learning about that in sex-ed when I was in school. I guess it's my own fault for being so naive about genital herpes. It still just makes me angry that now I have to live with this for the rest of my life. I guess I can say I was lucky that my first outbreak wasn't as bad as I've been hearing about. I didn't have as many blisters, just a lot of pain. Pain I never thought I would feel in my life.
I feel like I'm being punished or that this is my karma. Why me? Why now? I'm 28 years old and finally figured out the career of my dreams. I felt like I had all my ducks in a row. Then BAM! I feel so ashamed. I'm repulsed by the thought of sex. I don't know if anyone else has that feeling?? Most of all..I'm scared that I will give this to someone else some day..when I do decide I want to have sex again. I accept my fate. I'm done crying. I guess I'm just at the point where now I'm crabby and bitter. I just want to feel normal. I feel like I have " I HAVE HERPES" tattooed on my forehead for the whole world to see.
Is there anyone else that feels like this?
I know how you feel when I find out I have herpes I thought it was just a dream that will go away, but it not it fact of life. I dont know who I got it from. I talk to all guys I had sex they said that they got tested and it came back negative for them. I full-time college student I major in Education I wanna work with special need children, but now I am scared if I do that if I touch the child I will give them herpes. My mom is so ashame of me I can see it in her eyes she just upset with me. She wanted me to be safe and make sure my partner wear condom and all my partner did and I still got it. I sometimes feel like GOD is punish me for something I didnt do, but I cant blame it on him for this.
Mine wasnt bad I just had the pain, but the doctor gave me some pill and cream it start to go away now, but I still got the pain. I donate blood and now I scared to donate blood. I scared to have sex. I scared very much I dont know what to do and how I can go on with my life know I have this. I just feel like we all half to stay together and just move on one step at a time that what I am doing. Dont blame it on you for what is happen that what my mom told me she said it happen to everybody there is nothing we can do but just move on. I still cry sometimes, but I know cry is not going to do nothing.
I 22 yr old I have herpes. If you need me dont be afaird to message me.
I know the feeling. I am 29yrs. old and found out last year that I have herpes. I was surprised that what I thought was a rash and a chronic yeast infection turned out to be herpes. I caught from someone whom I trusted and when I asked if they got tested they told me they had and that they were std free. We ended up having sex without a condom and I now have been infected with herpes. I feel ashamed due to the fact that I should have known better and I feel he has robbed me of having a normal life. What eventually got me somewhat ok with it is my cousin. She was born with it and didn't know until she was 21. She has both hsv1 and hsv2. Im over here feeling sorry for myself for having it for 1 year and she had had it her whole life. There are still times where i cry myself too sleep or just bust out in tears. I feel stupid sometimes for being put in this predicament. I'm afraid later on in life that when and if I do start dating again people will reject me because of it. One of my exes has been supportive and he accepts me for me and the fact that I have herpes. I have only told a couple of people. I have yet to tell my mother. I'm afraid of what she might think. I told my best friend and it turned out that she has hsv1 and never told me. I am infected with HSV2. If either of you need to vent or just need someone to talk to...message me anytime..
I felt the same way as you.... someone once told me GUILT demands punishment....Once I realized that I had created this DISease by my thoughts and what i was feeling in that moment before I contracted it...THEN the virus left my body. I had to do some forgiveness on the nuns telling me I was a sinner/sex was a sin etc. etc. BUT once I cleared that and let that go...and view myself as innocent :) MY life changed :)
Good luck sweetie!
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please be aware there is no cure for herpes. if God chooses to heal you that is wonderful. but do not stop any meds unless instructed to do so by your physician.
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