I feel like I am dying inside. I am so emotionally distraugh

I feel like I am dying inside. I am so emotionally distraught. I feel like everyday I am coming more and more to terms with this. And the life I'll live. But I am losing it. I can't seem to stay calm. I end up hyperventilating at work with just worry. I'm pushing everyone away. I see myself falling apart. I can't eat. I'm just always tired. I can't study. I want to disappear.

I know exactly how you feel. I can't go more than 5 minutes without thinking of it and when I do forget and have a "normal" moment, reality catches up. I had to switch to waterproof mascara for the time being and can't even look at food. Hang in there! I know that wasn't really advice but just thought I'd let you know that you're not alone with this.

HI! I have been living with it since 2009...I can remember how scarey and emotional it was when i first found out..I remember having panic attacks and crying myself to sleep thinking HOW COULD I BE SO STUPID and ANGRY...I felt my life was over....BUt i am here to tell you that your life is NOT over...It will be hard to adjust and to come to terms with it....My advice is to get on medication and after the first year the outbreaks will be further and further apart..and when you do decide to try dating again, it will be different...but you will now have to get to know the person EXTREMELY well and when you feel you can trust them with your SECRET, let it out...but you have to be honest, you do not want someone to go through what you have to with this...They will either stay and learn, or they will go...and you will have to brace yourself for either action..BE STRONG.....hope i helped alil

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i too have had HSV for 28 yrs. I couldn't have said it any better than "livingwithit". HSV is a good way to weed out those who just want sex.

In your journeys HSV will force you to move slowly and with caution. those who leave, so be it... the one who stays will qualify as "A Keeper" and someone you will want in your life for eternity.

As i tell everyone here. Do Not Go Looking For It!! continue your life "By Yourself" and reach for your goals. In your travels, the right person will appear when the time is right for you...