I feel Like things doesn't want to become better . I didn't

I feel Like things doesn't want to become better . I didn't test / masturbate myself for a all week. I get erections pretty easily to straight things and not to gay stuff but when I try to masturbate even if I loose a part of my erection with gay thought I feel a strong sensation as if it was more pleasant when I masturbate on gay thought and this drive me insane .. As if my body would prefer guys over girls ..

remember to label the thoughts and sensations for what they are: OCD thoughts, and sensations. Compulsions are sneaky, so stay strong, and don't give in to them!

From Anxiety & Panic Disorders to Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)