I feel so alone. I had a therapist for almost 6 yrs & she completely abandoned me. She said she would always be there for me & that was a lie. The boundaries were blurred from the beginning. When I said I had no friends she said she would be my friend. She talked to be throughout college & emailed me weekly after I graduated for a year and a half. I felt like she was my best friend & then all of a sudden she told me to stop contacting her. I've been molested, raped, bullied, teased, hit by car, broke up with boyfriends & never felt so much emotional pain in my life then when she abandoned me. I spoke to other therapists & I pretty much burn them all out emotionally. They think they can help me & then after a while they realize they can't & get frustrated. I need someone to talk to when I need to talk. I can't pour my thoughts and feelings out in one 45 min session. That's not enough time for me. I need supportive people in my life on a daily basis not people I have to pay to essentially pretend that they care about me, when all they are doing is trying to make a living like everyone else.
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People are people as flawed as we are. People who work in fields of therapy, social work, etc. care about their work but they can only do so much. I hope you are able to do some healing as best you can.
I understand people are flawed. She hurt me so bad. Like, why be fake, when you can be real? Why cause ache, when you can heal?
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