I feel so twisted today- I gaze at my bony wrists and hands in sick admiration, then look at my sagging chin and it becomes all I can see. People are always telling me that I'm beautiful, but I just don't believe them- surely there's an ulterior motive, right? I can't leave the house unless I'm dressed to the nines- stacked heels and perfectly coordinated accessories just to go to the grocery store. I guess I think that if everyone's attention is focused on my clothes they won't notice how much I hate what's beneath them...
I'm so sorry for what you're going through right now. It can be so hard to look in the mirror and perceive what is really there. Especially when the world is screaming at you with so many impossible standards that you never know exactly how you look. But please try to remember that you are beautiful, and that people do love you and that you are so much more than just clothes or looks. Have your talked to anyone about these feelings? It might help to see a counselor to really try to delve into these feelings more. Best wishes and know that you're not alone-we're here for you!
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@lh003 Thank you for hearing me- it feels amazing to know I’m not speaking into a vacuum. My logical brain realizes the truth, that I’m much more than my physical appearance, but some part of my mind argues back. I think this kind of support will make a huge difference…