I feel that since I have been diagnosed with depression and anxiety, relationships are off the table. I see all these posts where people are talking about their significant others that are depressed and I don't want to be the one responsible for that.
How could I love someone, but because I'm depressed and have problems, I cause them problems? That's not fair for me to do, right?
I do get jealous when I see couples in public. When they kiss each other, hold each other, and just gaze into the eyes of the one they love.
I want that. I've had it before, even if she was lying to me about everything, I still had that feeling... Love.
But the fear that they will hurt me as bad as my ex did, and will use me, and cheat on me still haunt me. When I like someone, I make myself stop because I don't want to go through that again. I don't want to give them myself 100%, and put all my faith and trust in them only to have them crush me and rip my heart out.
How can I want something so bad, but be afraid of it?
You've been through the ringer and you need to chill and be confident that you are going to meet HER one day.
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@Ariel7890 I guess it’s something I just really have to work on then? /.\ 
I really hope so <3
@ZgirlDAPA Keep the hope! I met my true love on Match.com of all places!
aww <3
thank you, I definitely feel better towards having a relationship in the future /.\
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I think maybe we all go through that sometimes,love can b scary! Because of hurts,miscommunication,betrayals so it's understandable it's not easy to love without fear but it seems worth it .I don't know if your in therapy but it could help to process & challenge these feelings so u could open up :)
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