I fought against the bottle, but I had to do it drunk. Leon

Addiction & Recovery Substance Abuse
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I fought against the bottle, but I had to do it drunk. Leonard Cohen

funny and sad at the same time.

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somehow i can relate to that.the more i drank,the more I wanted to stop.

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@exbudman I actuallly understand that. Same thing with me. The more I drank the stupider I knew I was getting and the worse I knew I’d be feeling the next day. So, I’d tell myself this is the last one. After then last one, had another and told myself that would be the last one…until I finally fell over!

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did the same thing for couple months.I finally grew up and n said screw it.the jitters last a few days.dead is forever.day # 8 today n I dont miss feelin crappy and forgetting what i did/said the nite before.

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Congrats. Keep it up. I just signed up to support you. So anytime you need a boost, let me know.
By the way, is that a picture of a black cat next to your name. I had three black cats once. Booboo, Midnight, and Shadow. Shadow is the only one who was pure black. the other two had a few white spots here and there. Shadow is also the only one still alive. He is living with a friend of mine (I moved in with my mom and she wouldn't let me bring my cats!). My friend also took my pure white, blue eyed, deaf cat called Spooky. Everyone gets along great. I miss them. I try not to think about them too much. Gets me depressed and you know where that gets me!

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anniecastiel,thank you both for the congrats and for the support.I allso signed up to support you.Yes,oddly enough that is my sons cat named Midnight,and my mom was a firm believer in angels,probably because she was one,and still is.this must be karma,or fate.I'm glad I joined the group. I have to learn how this site work n stuff.your my first supporter and you just might be my angel.thank you very much.

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@exbudman Hey thanks. It feels good to be someone’s angel! I will help in whatever way I can. the first thing I should tell you is that at the very bottom of the site there is a FAQ thing you can click on. It’s like 10 pages or so if you print it up. It has all kinds of helpful information in it.

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I understand completely I'm dealing with a similar thing. I will support you.

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@Justme092813 Hey thanks. I just supported you back. The more people we have supporting each other the better! What makes my situation particularly troublesome is that I have other physical and mental ailments. Because of chronic pain i am on medication where they really advise people not to consume alcohol, or some which say don’t drive or operate heavy equipment! Fortunately, i"m smart enough NOT to drive and drink. I usually drink at home alone, so I’m not a social drinker, which is bad too. I think I mostly do it to help me zone out so I forget how depressed i am about all of my problems. all I am doing, of course, is creating more problems for myself. my rational mind understands this, but I still keep doing it.

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thank you justme.this is gonna sound stupid,but i'm glad i'm not the only one.

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@exbudman if you want to you can pm me anytime. We are all here to help each other :)

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@Justme092813 ,thanks.same here.how do i do that???

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your welcome and thank YOU! I think i drank ta zone out too.when your bombed you dont worry bout bills n money,etc.but then you wake up.I had to change.n I have some of those meds.but I dont have a bulldozer so I'm good ta go.

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You have to send another request so we can message. :)

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im lost.a request?

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@exbudman I"m not sure what justme means by a requests either. Just follow my instructions and be patient. I’m a bit hurt. You never asked me if I have a bulldozer. LOL