I found out in November I was pregnant. I took two test and

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I found out in November I was pregnant. I took two test and I was so excited. I started telling everyone, even strangers just because I was so proud to be carrying my baby. Once I told my mom, she mentioned that my grandmother had been talking about a little girl staring at her for a couple days. I was having a girl and I kept telling my husband it was a girl. I had my first appointment and I literally cried the entire time. I was so nervous. Around New Years, my husband took me out for a date. We played games for about 20minutes and I felt like I peed on myself. I reached down and my fingers had blood on them. We rushed to the bathroom and my panties were soaked in blood. We rushed to the hospital. They said everything was fine, but as we sat in the hospital I cried the entire time. On January 9th, I lost everything. I received an email from one of my doctors back home. It said I was having a girl. I remember being so mad I received the information and she was not here. Mother's Day just passed and no one told me happy mothers day. It hurts so bad that I had a life in me, but I am not celebrated, but even more that she is not here. She would have been here the 21st and July is only getting worse. I would never wish this on anyone.

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I am so sorry, it feels like such a take back gift, but I promise, it does get better, but it hurts for a long time.

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It does and I’m trying so hard not to rush the process.

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I think women who experience miscarriage have a deeper loss because they are not considered by many to be a mother. But you are-you became a mother the second that baby came into existence. I am sorry you are going through this, and I hope you get through July quickly and August can hopefully be happier. Again, I am so sorry for your loss-I know your heart literally hurts right now.

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@justamomof2 thank you!

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I am so sad to hear your story. You have carried your baby - that baby is yours, and you are her mom. Always remember that. My first pregnancy had ended in a miscarriage and it was so sad to experience that, especially having to experience labor pains with no baby in arm in the end:( However, I eventually got to experience motherhood to healthy babies too. It hurts a lot to experience like something you have experienced. Let time heal, and let God comfort your heart and soul - grieve, you need to grieve. May your sadness turn to deep joy someday soon. Sending you a virtual hug.

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@Joy14 thank you so much hopefully I’m in your position soon.