I found out my body belongs to an incurable disease yesterday. I have never felt so alone, disgusting, ashamed and humiliated in my life. I feel as though people will not look at me the same. I feel like people will think I'm dirty or gross. I feel like I'll be alone for the rest of my life. I'm only 22 and I already feel like the best part of my life is over and it's all down hill from here. I want to give up. I want to quit my job and sell all my belonging and lay in bed for the rest of my life where noone can judge me. I already have horrible anxiety including social anxiety. I've never made friends easily or easily talked to guys. Now I stand no chance in a happy relationship. The know I won't ever pursue a relationship with anyone ever again because I absolutely cannot handle rejection, so I would not even attempt it. I could not face someone turning me down because of this.
We all know how you're feeling. I just found out too. I'm feeling the same. I'm 31 F no kids. Supporting is all we need now and time. Until things can feel normal again. We still can have a normal life. Hugs!!!! Continued posting we're understanding here!!!
You are not dirty or gross. I used to assume the same thing about people with STDs...until I contacted herpes from my ex-husband. It is a shock; but the best thing to do is to educated yourself, take care of yourself, and consider ways to reduce your stress levels. I have found this support group to be a wealth of support and information. You will find the right someone who will love you completely. Unfortunately, rejection is part of life...just keep in mind you have to rule out those who are worthy of you and the person who is worthy will make it all worthwhile. It's a process... take care of yourself...
don't worry, when i found out i had it i had an anxiety attack on spot. there were so many questions and thoughts, no one will understand me, ill never trust again, ill never have a good relationship, i may never be mentally strong enough to have a child, heck i wanted to jump off a building because i couldnt take it. but its not the end of the world it'll get better, im 18. just take your meds and stay positive *HUGS*