Its been so long. Ive been busy. I started a new job, at Bath and Body Works. So far its been good. I really like it. I like a lot of my co-workers. I also met a boy. Hes fantastic. We spent a lot of this together the pass two weeks. =]
on the topic of my ED.....it sucks. Ive been failing at meal planning A LOT. Ive been eating, and by the end of the day its been around my perscribed amount. I dont really know why Its been so bad. Its just annoying, and frustrating. Im not looking to have symptoms or anything...Im just sick of meal planning. which is funny because I make a plan for everyday, then dont follow through with it. I also havent lot any weight, and Im not trying to. Im uncomftorable in my skin right now, but accepting it, and just going with it, hoping that like they say, it evens out 6 months, to a year from now. not that I can afford to add any fat anywhere. Whatever. at least Im alive? right?
also, I HATE therapy. I hate bringing up things that make me so upset. The other day, therapy was so awful, I went home took two of my pills that I take to sleep at night, and slept from 2pm till 7 am the next morning. Im sick of feeling and thinking things. Seemed like the best solution. maybe not. what ever.
I also heard from the ex this week. He wanted to come pick up his uniforms for his summer tour in the Air Force. I dont want to see him. I dont want to have to deal with any emotions/anger that might come up. so what do I do? run away! again...what ever.
I miss my friends from treatment. =[ I feel like this would be so much easier if I could just talk to them more.