I got drunk the thought crossed my mind and I said it out loud to my gay friend. "I've had gay thoughts." Now it's all I think about. I've loved being sexually active with women my whole life. I've never been sexually attracted to guys or even had the urge to watch gay porn. Now the thought is eating at me. My anxiety is making it worse and it's making me depressed. I'm afraid to even see my girlfriend because I'm nervous I won't get aroused when I have had absolutely no issues in this area in my past. I don't know what the hell is going on but it's ruining my life.
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Hey Nic, from what you've written you have HOCD, what it does is make your life misery by toying with your thoughts about your sexual orientation. Most guys have had gay thoughts, the mind wanders. However, having a gay thought doesn't make you gay, you have a girlfriend because you wanted her, sounds straight to me. Look at some CBT courses and try them out they help with OCD cases. Notaz