I hate having to stretch my pain meds. I've been on the so long that I am dependent on them. Some call it addicted, but there is a big difference. And yes I go through withdrawals when I run out. But the difference is I don't seek out meds outside of my script. I don't crave the meds as I don't get any form of euphoria or high from them. All the pills do is buffer the pain. It doesn't take my pain away, it brings my pain from a 10 to at best, a 6. I hate that the only way I can even mildly function is to be on a very high dose of narcotics. And they have a tendency to make my depression stronger.
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@zombiepenguin I am also on high doses of narcotics and I know how hard it is when you are" addicted " to pain meds. It is necessary though to live and go on in your life. Hang in there and remember that life would be worse without the meds. It's a necessary evil. Good luck on your journey
@EternalPain Its hard when people call you an addict and judge you for it. Especially when its family. I hate being so dependent on them. But without them I would go mad from the pain. And no one would hire me, even if i could work, because of the drug test. Even though I have a RX and don’t abuse it, being on the narcotics I am on, employers call it a liability because of the cognitive impairment it can cause.
@EternalPain Especially when you don't look like something is wrong. When the problem is on the inside and invisible to everyone. I get judged alot because I simply don't look ill or sick or whatever. My injuries are mostly on the inside, but if you lifted up my shirt you would see what the problem is. My boss thought I was faking it until I brought him a note from my doctor for light duty, which he wouldn't accept and said I would have to go out on leave instead. So I did and now I have run out of my leave, now I lost my job.
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If only the ignorant could walk in our shoes for 1 day, maybe they would learn some compassion.
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