I hate how I can't express my own opinion about anything cauI hate how I can't express my own opinion about anything

I hate how I can't express my own opinion about anything cause there will always be the negative from every positive happening in my life...I don't wanna be in this world I admit I'm weak but what do u do when ur parents wish u ur death and they always fight.....what do u do when u had so many friendships that broke and friends that betrayed and being that ugly ***** in school....I wanna scream out.....but instead I enjoy the feeling of a blade on my skin.....I wanna run for help but disappointent and sadness creep into me knowing that nobody will........plz I wanna scream to somebody tell them my story I wanna feel like somebody feels me.......

Plz I need help

what do u for norhan maybe I can do alittle?

norhan don't go with what ur parents think be positive and grow out of this experience u maybe stronger than u think