I hate my brain.
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I know its hard, you have got to stay strong and dont let your mind win.
Me to
I just broke down crying while laying on the floor. I feel sick.
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it really will get better in time. my ocd has. After awhile just sorta learn to *shrug* the thoughts off. Or at least that's how I think of it. I don't have to carry them or push them away, I just sorta don't get drawn in by them and let them fall away.
You might also try something new and unrelated. I don't know what, but giving your brain some new things to think about can be nice. Maybe try writing a story? I dunno, i found that helpful for me to keep my brain safely busy with other things.
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@Northguy That’s the same for me; I’m getting better at shrugging off the thoughts. I still have thoughts and I wonder if I put them purposefully or if it’s ocd but I try not to think too much about it. I think my brain is actually tired of engaging in the false notion that I’m gay (or my brain has just learned to deal with the uncertainty). It’s a relief to say the least.
I agree with you. It’s very important to keep busy! I find it helpful also to have people around that I can talk too in order to prevent myself from getting lost in my thoughts. If my mind is idle for too long, it goes to some pretty dark places.
It’s great that you’re doing better!
Thank you both! It's just like I'm here existing... I feel like a waste of space I mean I know I'm not but that's how I feel. I'm just really scared right now because I don't like guys anymore well at least that's what my brain is saying... ):
Haha I'm talking about my HOCD.
Google it.
I hate HOCD and rocd.