I hate this struggle

Is it possible for your body to finally say "no more...I am not going to let you purge". I mean that is what has happened to me today. I just spent the last half hour putting myself through hell and my body completely rejecting my efforts. I will spare the details but all that happened was I started bleeding and spitting up blood and got a massive headache. I almost passed out the other day. I have been getting stomach cramps.

I hate this whole battle. I want to win but my Ed is like a bad relationship. It is better to be in it than be miserable without it... Does that even make sense. I just don't know sometimes.

oh no ..i know this is hard and will be harder to readied but it time to get to a DR ...you need to stop what ever you doing and get help ,i will tell you something i'm an obese woman who weights over 200lbs i have just eaten a big slice of cheese cake and some chips and i hate myself for it ...but i know that there an underline problem i know what i need to do ,but like you i go to the extreme and then hate myself for it later .
So PLEASE GET TO YOUR DR GET JUST DO IT ..AND I HOPE YOU FEEL BETTER SOON.

JUST LET JUST LEARN TO LOVE OURSELVES.

Ashley,

I am so concerned for you, honey... Why are you so determined to purge? What's going on? You sound as though you're self-destructing...

Sending HUGS!

Jen