I have 0 supporters and 0 supports.....I feel mighty ******.....doesn't anyone read my post? I am in a strange country, have no money to go home to Canada and far away from my abuser and now nobody is even reading my post. Then why actually bother.
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Dear Faith,
I am sorry that it seems no-one is reading you post. I will take the first step and start supporting you. Which country are you in? Have you tried to lay charges of abuse against the perpetrator?
Hang in there and know that God has a plan for all of us. Pray, I know it is hard but you have to reach out to God and people you know and let them know about what is going on. Stay Strong! Hugs!
@Nosta thanks I appreciate it…I really could use some advice. Should I leave or stay and of course I don’t think it gets ever better.
Hi cant not comment to much as i do not know your circumstances .
I am new here and not really sue of my way around we are all here for a reason and am happy tolisten
Hi ya that is nice, I am just so not used to talk/write this stuff that are going on in my house. But now I am so sick of it, but would my husband to change since I do still love him.
I used to feel that way about my x ..........for me I learn I never really knew love only abuse........I never grew up with any one to show me sohad no wy to gage love then............had ot take a course on healthy relationships and work with a group of females ot learn why ifelt it was love..........he said he love dme but never showed so I assumed the words had to be love and for me love wa giving my all..........keeping a clean home cooking good, working hard ont he farm or off and always trying to please ......learnt I never could please and over 19 yrs just worked hard at being a wife,mom and farmer.........I was so good at it people thought I had a happymarraige but far from it...........I was just his slave and hole to plug into when he choose .........I was not respected, not appreciated , not loved .........how do you base love on amarriage when it is one sided..how can you say love to a man whom harms you?.............questions I had ot ask myself.........gave 19 yr to a man whom cold care less if I lived or died.......learnt I did not love him learnt I was to broken to even leave and find real love........love should not hurt shoulf not make you feel unworthy or ashamed.........love should never make you feel alone or isolated......love should feel good not bad ...........that is wha ti learnt about love
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@dare 33300 You see what is really confusing to me is, he shows me love when he wants it. Meaning he hugs and kisses me when he wants it, of course we didn't have lovemaking since 6 month. After 5 month he said to me; "don't you think it is finally time for it." Which I answered no since I don't know what you have done in the past 5 month. So he got verbally abusive and right then I knew I did the right thing. Since then he stopped almost everything. Staying every minute in his office. When I am thinking of leaving him my head starts hurting and I feel really ill. I need time....
I always knew when I was expected to preform but was embarrassed when my kids knew..........he is doing the same with his new wife and felt kind of ashamed to know my kids understood his actions .......romance was for dating and marriage I was his property.......when I married my present hubby they actually had apart in it that says to the effect a wife is not the property of the husband..weird they have to even point it out now in writing..............I remember feeling physical sick thinking of leaving so I never did......he had to end it I simply couldn't ........
@dare That is horrible too that he had to end it and you couldn’t, I would feel even more shitty. If anything I have to end it to feel at least some good about myself. Call me crazy.
no not crazy.............it is embarrassing that the kids knew their dad was a butt head and i kept trying to make things work ...........i did believe i was ot blame............my daughter at six new her dad did nothing but lie ...i wish i had left so i could y i left abuse not been dumped in abuse lol............oh well hind sight a wonderful gift to remind us why not sooner lol