I have a question. Has anyone else experienced anxiety with

Mental Health Personality Disorders
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I have a question. Has anyone else experienced anxiety with the no contact with a sense of fear? Throughout the day, on and off, I get this anxiety in my chest with a sense of fear. It's like walking in a dark alley and you feel like someone is behind you or watching you. I do not understand why I am feeling like this. It is day 23 of no contact (for me it's so contact: for him it his routine silent treatment with the new supply). I just would like some feed back on this because this is the ONLY part of the NPD & no contact I don't understand. I don't know why I am feeling fear, I kinda get why I'm feeling anxiety, but why fear. Please help.

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what is behind the fear? are you worried he might seek revenge, or find a way to punish you?

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@aura82 maybe both. He enjoyed making chaos and I always seemed to be in edge. I walked on egg shells before and I posted before that in his mind this is just another "silent treatment with his new supply" but I have made the decision and choice to go no contact. I want a divorce. I want out. Knowing now what I know I cannot allow myself or my family to endure any more abuse. I think the most I feel afraid of is him attempting to come in my presence. This man can flaunt his new supply (he did that on the first silent treatment) or cut me to shreds (he did that with the second and new supply) with a fake remorse shortly after he cut me up. This is why I made sure to have an attorney and yesterday I called to have an alarm system with survallence installed if he does I'm getting a protection order. My attorney told me now that his new supply (attorney said gf) has multiple guns, lives 6 houses down, he could use those guns. So I'm not talking any chances. I'm finished I want me back. I want the loving and honest and sweet and life coach back. I allowed this man to steal me. No more. I am too strong of a woman and a strong survivor.

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@tabbylady. Thank you so much for your support. I know this won't be easy, but when growth is needed the path is not easy but the road to recovery always leads to a better place.