I have a son who is a heroin addict I have NO IDEA where he is last known place he was in the Albany County Jail. I have repeatedly told him he has to get help and I have to cut him off until he WANTS to get help. I am so angry with him. I can't describe how I feel about him. I am ALWAYS worried ALWAYS sad. There is ALWAYS a knot a worry........constantly I NEVER have any peace....because of this. l am so pist....I can't focus on anything at times....its a major effort to focus. I have to redirect my thoughts constantly. He shots heroin and it's really bad....it's so embarrassing he's so embarrassing.....this is ridiculous.....it's my fault. I don't know where he is nor what's going on with him....and I haven't spoken to him since a shelter called to verify his identity so he can stay there....he is around the small city I live in......embarrassing he looks terrible...he was pan handling.....just a bum....I worried he can't stand prison or jail or anything like that....I regret keeping him......I wish I had put him up for adoption.....because I was going to initially..........but I didn't.....it's just a lot.........and it's in explicable...........worrying to death......it effects my health.....and well being......he's not the same person....he begs and steals.....he's been assaulted Im sure all kinds of things I think? I am not sure if he's dead or cold or alive
Wow I am so very sorry about your son.... This makes my issue look so minute. I can't even imagine what you are going through right now. I know though how much it hurts when your son does not want to come home. You want to help him but you can't. The ball is in their court right now. It sucks to say that. My health is not good either. I am in a constant worry as well. I love my son more than anything. I can say to try not to worry. But i know that is EASIER said than done. Just try to focus on other things, if you can..... I know it is difficult. Hopefully one day soon he will be on your doorstep begging to come home as as sober as you and me. Good luck... I will pray for you and your son. :)
@lostmom123, Thank you for your response and your support. I appreciate you sharing that you were faced with a similar situation. Yes it is extremely hard and the hardest thing I have ever encountered. Again your reply meant a lot, something so simple can have a major impact. I do not feel alone in this battle…Good luck to you and your son lostmom123
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Jo