I have been battling PTSD since I was 14, after I was stabbe

I have been battling PTSD since I was 14, after I was stabbed. Then at 16 violently attacked again. I turnt to recreational drugs to cope with overwhelming emotions. When I was 20 I start a relationship which was abusive mentally and physically for 3 a half years. In this time my drug use went up dramatically and I was using cocaine everyday.

I feel my past is so far in to my future, I need a way to put my past to rest. So I can move forward with the rest of my life. I've felt this way for so long and lived this way for so long it's become my normal. Ten months ago I had an accident due to me taking to many sleeping tablets with booze, I fell 12ft and nearly lost my leg. It really opened my eyes to how much I want to get better but I don't know where to start.

I feel the same. I am thinking of a total relocation and restart.