I have struggled with depression all my life but didn't really think much about it. My agoraphobia is returning and for the same reason it appeared the first time. An office situation that is very uncomfortable and I fell extreme pressure because keeping my job is affected. There are some days just getting a foot out the door is extremely difficult. I manage to make the step and get to the office but it is a daily struggle to maintain any type of composure. I have started ordering grocery-type things online and having them delivered to the house so my time at the actual store(s) is limited. My body is queasy often and the only thing that relieves my queasiness is a cola so I'm back to drinking Coke daily. I haven't consulted a medical professional and it is unlikely that I will do so. All my life doctors have let me down -- misdiagnosing my asthma issues with chemical smells, telling me to go away when I have a extreme case of bronchitis, and similar things. So doctors...no trust. I'm trying to handle the agoraphobia by focusing one minute at a time on moving through the day. It is difficult when I work directly with the person causing most of the problem. From that point, my desire to be away from people expands outward. I have no one to turn to for help with the situation. Luckily, I do have my 3 cats who do help to relieve some detrimental emotions. So. Thanks for listening.
take things one day at a time. things will get better.
Thanks.