i have way too much hate and anger toawards not only my self but my family thats caused me so much pain. who knew a 17 year old would have to put up with so much..............
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I am sorry you feel that way. I had a lot of anger and hatred at a young age. I had nowhere safe to direct it, so it ended up being directed at me. I felt like everyone thought everything I did was wrong, and that I was wrong for being alive. It has taken a lot of time and working through things to realize that most of what I felt guilty for was not my fault. Still I am bothered by it, but nothing like when I was younger. I tried different meds, but nothing seemed to work. I am on something now that seems to help with the anxiety part of it, but mostly I had to learn to forgive myself and others for my past. I want to encourage you to keep trying. Try anything that might help. Don't give up on yourself and your options. You will find the thing that helps you the most, but you do have to keep looking. If you need to talk, we are here.
its not my fault my mom left. why my dad is barely exsistent and why my siblings dont talk to me. i was 3 weeks old i just dont get how im still the middle of there problems when i moved out about 4 years ago when i was in the 8th grade.. makes no sense. what the hell did i do to deserve this
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I used to think family was the most important part of your life, no matter how bad it was. Now I realize that some people are just poison, and being around them is fatal. Even if they are family. Now I realize more that family are the people you choose to surround yourself with, not the people who surround you at birth.
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