Well I woke up this morning after 2 two-day bender where I was drinking and driving all around. I need help and am too ashamed to ask for help and too strong to find humbleness and humility. Hopefully I can break this destructive behavior.
Shane .... you have taken a great first step. CONGRATS!!! You have reached out.
Have you ever considered going to an AA meeting? They are all over the place and have various meeting times.
I think you will be surprised at the help you will get from a local support group like AA. You will also find great help here on this website too.
If you need help in finding a meeting or need help in mentally getting to a meeting, there's help.
http://www.aa.org/
Let us know.
I just don’t know if AA meetings are really for me. I feel I am a unique case considering I really don’t drink that often, but when I do, it is pretty dangerous. I remember going to AA meetings with my father and people there still being drunk. I seem to have more of an excessive problem when I hit the bottle (which in some cases can be worse). Who knows…maybe its just the fear of change.
It sounds like you are a binge drinker. Do you find yourself drinking like this when you feel depressed? Do you think you are doing this as a means of self medicating?
If you are having trouble going to AA as a possible solution, then I will suggest getting a therapist. He/she will help you through the process of ending this behavior.
I will also suggest that seek out some other sort of support group too. A group where you can actually be apart of the meeting ... you know ... physically there. Some place where you can network with others just like yourself.
However, I really do want to you encourage you to try AA. Go and see what you can pull out of the meetings. See what's in it for you. Try to seek out the positive in this. Maybe, you will meet people there who are just like yourself. It can't hurt.
I am not sure if you know of the ramifications from binge drinking. Your body can only take sooooo much abuse. Then, once you get to a certain point you can no longer drink anymore. Then what do you do? What will you do when you HAVE to have that drink?
We are here for you.
Hi Shane, You have taken the first step by reaching out here for help. If you don't want to do AA face to face yet, you may consider doing some online AA meetings. You can do a search and find some. If you need help with finding any though just let me know. AA is not the only way but is the way I chose. There are other groups out there to use to help yourself get sober and get support. This is a link about non 12 step programs that I posted on the site here http://alcohol.supportgroups.com/sg/alcohol/non-12-step-programs . Keep taking it one day at a time. Keep us posted on how you are doing. We are here for you. ((((hugs))))