I just can't seem to get it right today..why do somedays just test you to the extreme?
heres hoping tomorrow is better :)
I second that emotion, Mango! Been a tough day for me too, of a different kind! Just so many people needing help.
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@zombie penguin. Maybe what you are seeing in their eyes is the pain and frustration they feel in not being able to help you or not knowing just what to do. I am not familiar with your story so that is the best insight I can give at the moment. Just don't give up, YOU are worth fighting for even if it turns out you are the only one fighting the battle. In 2014 I had 3 separate but equally tragic occurrences in my life and after the last I feel I've lost myself, I know who I use to be but can't find her in here anywhere. Just keep fighting. I'm fighting with everything I have but still feel I'm losing but I will not give up.
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It's so weird because I had such a empowering weekend and felt so positive about my progress. I mean 6 months ago I wouldn't even talk to anyone and was on as needed panic and anxiety medication twice a day and the last three weeks I haven't needed to take it at all. That is a huge deal. I even drove over a bridge which is unheard of for me. I mean I was so proud of myself. I even hung out with one my bestfriend and had lunch and some pampering. last week I mended a relationship with one of my life long friends and I hadn't desired or felt strong enough to deal with that for a year. my relationship with my oldest daughter is improving and I feel like I've come so far in our communication and just overall been feeling empowered...and bam! Something is triggering this and I'm trying to figure out what it might be. I have come so far guys...I just get terrified of ever going back to that place of darkness. I just get a little scared when this feeling comes and I feel vulnerable.
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one other thing I was wondering if any of you felt that way when you first started blogging and sharing on this site?
@Yellowrose10 Do you think I’m still in the beginning phase…I mean I haven’t seen him in 10 months and I haven’t been with him for close to 2 years…I mean it was hell but I have come leaps and bounds…so thankful
i can't go to the store, I keep finding things of his, and songs make me cry. It has been 6 months since i started all this, but he has really only been gone for 2 months. and i am petrified when we go to court. I am scared that he will convince the judge of what he wants and that i will loose custody of our daughters. that is his plan, he told me all the time and now its on paper too.
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@silvio - I live and feel your fear. I don’t want to see him, hear about him, nothing. Mine is just threatening total devastation of my person, my mind, my soul, my reputation, my self-respect, and the list goes on and on. I cannot think about how his mind works (or doesn’t) - it only hurts.
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I am cool at the moment.
Hey ! Thats OK it means that your intuition is telling you to chill out.
I was in a hospital 7 years ago and died from Trauma Shock . After a million dollar bill to bring me back to life and 7 days in a Coma and 40 days in the death ward ICU . I have mellowed out to all annoyances. It is like I have been remade? If you can find a way to slow down like I did, life will really get mellow. I am back at work and look 30 years younger than I am.
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