Im new to all of this and im not very good at sharing. But every day I feel sadder and sadder. I cry all the time, I dont talk to my friends, I barely go to school anymore, im just tired and horrible feeling all the time. I don't know how to handle this. I can't tell my mom because she already has her own problems to deal with and I dont want to make things worse for her. I hate feeling like this. I just dont know what to do.
Have you told your doctor about the way you've been feeling?
Speaking from a mom's perspective, we need to know...we want to know...it doesn't matter about our other problems when our child is hurting...we want to help. So please talk to her.
You didn't state your age, so I don't know if this applies, but maybe your hormones are doing a number on you.
Other than that kiddo, just know you're not alone. Please tell someone what you're going through, you may be surprised how others can help.
I havent talked to my dr about the sadness but I am on medicine because I suffer from extremely bad headaches. Im on cymbalta and a birth control to help with hormonal problems. But i have been sad and dissatisfied with my life for as long as I can remember. Im 16 years old and I honestly cant remember a period in my life when I have been truly happy. And things are just getting much worse. Also I really feel like I can't tell my mom. Her and my dad recently got divorced and shes depressed and on medication. She already has to deal with my headaches and I cant see how that affects her. I can see how its destroying her. I cant add to that with my issues. Also I dont talk to my dad at all. My friends have abandoned me, so i guess they really arent good friends.
I'm not qualified to give advice, I just happened upon your post, but is there one particular thing that makes you feel worse?
No there isnt one particular thing. Now everything seems to make me feel worse. The thought of having to go to school and being miserable. Haing headaches everyday and people just think im faking it because the doctors cant see anything wrong with my brain, and so on. Every little thing upsets me. im just sad all the time. And being sad makes it worse because I just feel pathetic and stupid. Sorry im not really good and answering questions and focusing on what I want to say.
Well, if there's one thing I do know, it's migraines. I've had them since I was 17 and I'm 42 now. The doctors have me on a beta blocker for prevention and Zomig for the actual attack. I'm a pro at taking Goody's powder with a coke to keep a full blown migraine at bay. And I take the Nexium to prove it :) That stuff will eat your stomach up. Anyway, I'm just wondering if you lack Serotonin. When that brain chemical gets off level it can affect your mood and headaches. I think at your age, giving SSRI's can be "iffy". I think the trend is to wait until you're out of your teens. Paxil helped me some, may not for others.
I'm a pessimistic person by nature. I've always seen the glass half empty instead of half full. Some people are peppy people and nothing gets them down for long. I try to recognize that and accept that I'm more of a depressed personality. I'm not saying you are, or that its an okay behavior for you. Just, in my life, I've had alot of negative things happen to me, so I tend to wade in the depression. If that makes sense. I long to be a happy, peppy person, but realistically, its just not in me. I mean I laugh, I see humor in life, but I'm a darker person and I accept that.
I hope this makes sense, that it helps you at least see you're not alone, or maybe that there are different levels of normal and you're on the grayer side. If you feel like its getting worse, please go to your doctor asap.
I just dont know how I can last till im out of my teens. I get headaches everyday all the time. At night it gets worse. To the point were im on the floor crying and screaming. I just want them to fix me. When it gets to the point where its absolutely horrible I go to the hospital to get meds. They have tried many meds and lots of the meds that get rid of headaches cause a really bad reaction for me. So theres not many options. We found a combo that worked but the last time I went it didnt. But the drs didnt try anything else they just sent me home crying and in pain.Iv been to every type of dr and no one can find anything wrong. Now it seems like that they thing im just doing this to get attention and im making it up. I just cant deal with it anymore. Its too much for anyone to bear. But why me I already have enough bad stuff in my life. I know there are people that are worse off, but still I feel like everything is out to get me. If there is a virus or something going around I get it. I have had mono 8 times it just keeps reactivating. Iv had multiple surgeries. The last one was for appendicits which left me with chronic pain in my right side. Which people also think im making up. Since about 7th grade iv just felt sick and tired all the time. And its just been getting worse. I sit at home and lay in bed all the time because if I do something I get a worse headache and I get extremely tired. On top of pyhsical things my parents got divorced and I dont mind it. Because I hate my dad so much and now I dont have to see him. But I can see how much it hurts my mom. So having all these headaches just makes it worse. Im just a burden to everyone. All these drs cost so much money and we arent poor but we arent rich so I can see that it causes stress. I just dont know how to handle things. iv never been good at coping with things. I hate to just unload all my issues on people but I cant deal with them.
Hi Tegann03, I am so happy that you are here sharing with us as I believe that this is a big step in the right direction. This is such a great place to share and feel a sense of love and support when you feel that you have nowhere else to turn. This place has really uplifted me so much.
I think that being unhappy and depressed can be such a slippery slope, I've been down it many times and for me, unless I nip it in the bud and turn my energy around, then I keep sliding down deeper into depression. Things that help me tremendously;
1) sharing with everyone here whenever I have thoughts or feelings that I need to get out
2) going for a long walk, clearing my head, and listening to my favorite music
3) listing 3 things that I am grateful for and 3 things that I wish for
4) watching comedies and uplifting movies
If you focus on all of the good in your life, rather than the bad and what you don't have, you can slowly but surely turn your energy around. It may not happen overnight, but you will get there.
Please keep sharing, we are here to help in any way that we can.
Tegann03, I am so sorry for all of the pain that you are going through, but it seems that you are doing everything that you can medically to take care of yourself. And, don't ever feel like a burden to your family and friends; they love and care for you very much and only want to see you happy and healthy; that I am sure of. I know that you will make it out of all of this, I am praying for you and sending you tons and tons of happy, healthy, healing energy. Please keep sharing with us.