I just feel like I wanna die
no, don't say that. i am sure you have a lot to live for. what is wrong ?
I understand that desperate feeling. Most of us on here have felt that way and some of us still do occasionally. Please know and rest assured that the "terribleness" will eventually pass to "numbness" and then one day when you're taking a walk, for no apparent reason, you experience a spark of joy.
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