I just found this site and figured I give it a try. I've bee

I just found this site and figured I give it a try. I've been struggling for years now, before the Pandemic hit. But it definitely made it harder. I don't want to do anything. I'm lethargic, lazy, sloth. Part of this is due to my chronic conditions and I understand that. But I'm now at the point where my wife is giving me ultimatums. Either change or she's done.

I'm not entirely sure how to do this. I have disconnected from many people in my life. I seem to be in pain with most of the ones I can think of. Whether from past trauma or they aren't reliable to help me. There's a part of me that just wants to divorce and get it over with and move on so she can have a life. But then what. How am I supposed to get a job and be on treatment. Feels impossible. She is my caregiver. But it weighs on her.

I'm so stuck.(I'm aware this was a ramble. I knew I wouldn't write anything if I tried too hard.)

Do you have therapeutic support?

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@andine I do not. I spend all my money on treatment. And my wife also needs support terribly. i’ve been trying to push for her to use her work resources. but being lgbt its hard for her to find the right therapist. so i feel like im in a constant floating state