I just found this site and figured I give it a try. I've been struggling for years now, before the Pandemic hit. But it definitely made it harder. I don't want to do anything. I'm lethargic, lazy, sloth. Part of this is due to my chronic conditions and I understand that. But I'm now at the point where my wife is giving me ultimatums. Either change or she's done.
I'm not entirely sure how to do this. I have disconnected from many people in my life. I seem to be in pain with most of the ones I can think of. Whether from past trauma or they aren't reliable to help me. There's a part of me that just wants to divorce and get it over with and move on so she can have a life. But then what. How am I supposed to get a job and be on treatment. Feels impossible. She is my caregiver. But it weighs on her.
I'm so stuck.(I'm aware this was a ramble. I knew I wouldn't write anything if I tried too hard.)