I realized that so much of my fear about having a job is that for approximately 2 weeks out of every month I am a completely different person. I'm negative, anti-social, tired, cranky, short-tempered, in pain... or something similar and the other half I am usually happy, positive, understanding, social, and at least somewhat energetic.
Last week I realized that I didn't just feel different- I was different. My thoughts, word choices, opinions on everything, my patience or sudden lack-there-of... I couldn't recognize myself and then I realized that this happens just about every month and I'd never noticed a pattern.
I have no idea how to deal with this and minimize people noticing.