I feel so torn up inside. I just want him to be happy but it is driving me nuts that he's happier without me!!!
I'm sorry honey & alot here have seen & been through the same feelings your dealing with, I can only say it will take time to heal & not have this person on your radar screen for they are probably not as happy as they lead others to believe. Focus on YOU, focus on anything else but them, do not let them live rent free in your mind, and your doing the right thing being on this site to lend support to others going through emotional pain.
Take care of you
April
Thank you so much for your support!!
Hey,
I read your profile, if it's any consellation I am sure he is not happier, it take ages to really move on from someone. i'm sure he thinks about you a lot. You are in the intensity of the seperation phase, but this is something you've thought about for a long time right? So without the focus being on him at all, how do you feel about the seperation, and do you think it will be a good think long term for you and your son.
Hope you feel better soon.
Love to you
MG x
I don't know what to think anymore. I have such a whirlwind of conflicting emotions going on right now. Yes this is something I've thought about and threatened to do several times but I had a complete change of heart and can finally see what I've done and the intense hurt I've caused. Don't get me wrong, he fully owns up to his part in our downfall but I can't help but wonder, what if I had been nicer and kept my anger in check would he have treated me differently? We talked last night and I was forced to tell him he needs to move out because I can't sit here wondering when he'll be home, not to mention not being able to answer our son when he asks "when is daddy going to be home". I feel like a horrible mother because of stupid things I've said and now I feel like he's using those words against me. He told me that once he finds a big enough place, he wants our son, that he needs his Dad. He needs both parents!!!!!!! I felt like my heart had been ripped right out!! I really try to think about how this is going to be better for all of us and give me a chance to work on myself and figure out who I really am but it is just so hard. I am so glad I found this site, it is such a relief to vent and get support from such good hearted people. Thanks again for the support.
Lost and lonely
HI!! I hope you feel better soon and that you find peace with in you! Don't worrie so much of what he is doing I am sure he thinks about you day and night theres problems and situations in every relationship.
Think about yourself and don't worrie everything will work! Try not to be so hard on yourself. Your son needs both in his life.
xoxo
Ana =)
Thank you all for your words of encouragement.
Hi Lost and Lonely, I am sorry for what you are going through and feeling, though I am sure he is not as happy as he is seeming to be. But, the important thing here is not him, it's you and only you. Moving on and away from him completely is key, even any thoughts of him. Focus on yourself and what makes you happy. Find fulfillment in each and everyday through the simple pleasures.
Lost, please try & not do the "What IF Game", otherwise you will only go in a circle, only look within & to your son keep focusing on that & then later on you will find those answers within when you take the journey & walk through the past history & find the HOWS, WHY, Wheres, it all takes time my friend.
April