I like to smoke weed because o can't drink and it takes some

I like to smoke weed because o can't drink and it takes some social anxiety away. However, I tend to binge and go back to eating disordered thoughts whenever I'm high. Can anyone see the dilemma or have the same problem? It's boring to be sober when at parties and such. I hate bongeing even more and it makes me feel like complete sh*t. I know I need to just stop smoking, but I don't want to at the same time for other reasons.

I think I understand what you're going through. Would it help if you went with a friend who you know will take a little less than you? Sometimes all you need is a little encouragement to pace yourself, and it's easier to have a good time and still be a little sober :)