this weekend i lost my best friend because one of my other best friends lied to her and said i said something i didn't. This friend wasnt just any friend she was like my other half. she got me to see the world in so many different ways and i loved her for it. we did funny things and we were known as the two stooges pretty much. i gave up so much for her and i would stick up for her even when it was a scary situation for me. i told her the truth and nothing but the truth but she still doubted me. i told her about my twisted life and she thought it was just a lie. but it wasnt. she has a perfect life and she's never met anyone messed up like me. but she fixed me for a period of time. i wrote this letter to her for her yearbook, i sent it the day before she decided not to be friends.
TinaTinaTina,
Please don’t tell me it’s already my senior year. That means our two classes are the top of the school and me and you, **** we are going to run this place. This year was probably one of the best. From the second I met you life has been a straight party well an Emily Noonan type party. Without you in my life is like the three blind mice only having two mice, or mario without luigi. We ran this joint. I wouldn’t change a thing, not even the speeding ticket or getting caught stealing because honestly that was the cherry on top to my junior year. From getting hallway restrictions to causing the largest car marker/paint fight that the regional has seen we basically brought a new meaning to chaos. I wish I could live it over and over again. You got me to do the craziest ****! Join the hockey team! Let you ride in my trunk! You even convinced me pull up all the way joys driveway just to see the creepiness. You little ***** you, I couldn’t picture life without you. Life would be so dull and stupid...like ani. But I love her<3 she wont even remember this. I am so lucky to have you. You are the first one of my friends that I can truly trust and I truly believe won’t walk away from me! I’v been completely honest with you and I know you have done the same with me. We are stapling this into your yearbook you little brat! I wish I could put a playlist in your yearbook but no one has invented that quite yet. I am sitting here in Ms.P’s room with Ani thinking about how if I never came across you in the hallway that day I would never have gotten the balls to ask to be put on a 504 which I shoulda been on prolllly like twenty years ago. Literally you are the best friend anyone could ever have and I dont give a fuck what they say about losing friends after high school you are my ***** forever and nothing will ever change that. Seriously though, remember the FIRST time we went to friendlys, and we thought KC HATED us. So what did we do? We put on a fucking puppet show with dippin chicken sticks and stuck my purple ice cream the the brick wall on the way our, officially uploading out FIRST mobile upload. We are the most random pair of friends but I think thats why it makes us so special. School without you is pointless, and me without you isn’t even funny...ok well thats a lie cause im fucking hilarious. I’m sure what I would do without you Tina. I don’t think i’v ever had such an amazing friend that I don’t need to seek attention for. If I ever lost you, i’d lose myself, i’d lose every ounce of will in me to open my eyes in the morning feeling great about the day. You save me eacch day. You have showed me a whole new side to this stupid world. You have watched me through my hardest times and toughened me up so I could stay strong. Whenever I needed a laugh, you were there. Whenever I needed hope you were there. Today I decided to finish writing this, well it is June 3rd and it’s graduation day, I haven’t been in school ALL day so iv missed you a ton! I always miss you though! Especially on nice days when we could be cruising in lil Dani with our bass bumping so heavy that we start an earthquake. I always loved how every time a cop was in sight you would yell “copcopcopCOP” until we passed and we were safe! But guess what in like two weeks it’s my birthday and there is no other way I’d want to spend it then to spend it with you! Because I know we have been drifting but don’t worry we can fix this! Because it’s truly something worth fixing! I know you get kinda bored with me so tell me things you want to do! And I’ll try them out with you! I can’t wait for this summer kid, it’s gonna be so amazing. So for our last year together let’s get ready to be wild! Because as of tonight I am officially a SENIOR! I love you kid, Emily
i will miss her. i feel hopeless. i just wish it was all normal again