Hi, My name is Jessie and I'm a 27 year old teacher. I developed Bulimia after having a chronic illness during which I gained a lot of steroid wight. After that experience I am obsessed with staying thin. Also I need 2 hip replacements and the less I weigh the better my legs feel. My type of Bulimia is laxative abuse, though that has lead to unplanned vomiting. On a bad day I take 17 laxatives a day. On good days I only take 14. I either restrict calories or binge, but I take laxatives regardless. I am trying really hard to get better. I have been Bulimic for close to 2 years. I am still chronically ill and will be having multiple surgeries this summer. I work full time and go to grad school full time. I see a therapist once a week and I'm trying an at-home workbook treatment, but I keep relapsing and taking more laxatives. My husband is having a hard time helping me or understanding where I'm coming from so I am reaching out for help.
Please, do not punish your body or yourself, trust me it is not worth the results that come with it. Every change will have ups and downs, but with your determination you will achieve a healthy goal. Have faith and everything will work out for the best. God bless you.