I've been eating uncontrollably for a very long time now and recently learned it is considered an eating disorder, I thought I just had a severe lack of self control. I can't stop eating when I start, even when I'm full. I feel very sick and then beat myself up for losing control afterwards. I look forward to eating, I love food. I look forward to going to the grocery store, hoarding food, and then eating it in my room by myself. I feel like I can't talk to anyone I know about this because they don't understand my illness. I am embarrassed to talk about it to them, it seems like it should be such an easy thing to control, but not for me. I need to know I'm not alone, I need to be heard, I need help. I would love to have someone to talk to when I feel a binge coming on so if anyone can help or has any advice, I would be really grateful
--Jessica
i know how ysou feel jessica. i have ocd and there are alot of times i will buy fast food or candy and have to eat so many fries or pieces of chocolate before i can stop and the i get sick to my stomache. i also feel guilty afterwards because i know i should have stopped when i was full. i am really over weight and i feel i have a eating disorder because i have no control as well. i want to get skinny and eat right but it seems so hard an i love food also. i am here when you need to talk.
Jessica.
I completely, 100% know how you feel. You are not alone. At all.
The only thing I can tell you is there is hope. Hope for me. Hope for you.
I have to remind myself of that hope every single day. That recovery is possible. And that slowly but surely I will find my way out.
Thank you both! It feels like a weight has been lifted to know there are people out there like me. Its a relief to know I can get help. I feel like with actual people supporting me that have the same issue, I will be more likely to not binge. I want a healthy and happy relationship with food more than anything and I want to be healthy. I overeat a lot, like at least 4 times a week, then I feel sick and fat and disgusted with myself. I work in a grocery store at the moment which may be a part of the problem but I need the money for my car and college. I've had a lot of drama in the past year as well which led me into a bit of a depression, thankfully I think I'm out of that but I can't stop eating. But thanks again for ur support, and hopefully one day we can all write our success stories on this site!
--Jessica
that would be awesome on the success stories. we just cant give up hope!
Yea I want to get better then give hope to others so they know this is beatable. We have hope and we'll jst take it one day at a time
I totally understand you, Jessica. *hugs* I need someone to talk to, too. It took me a long time to understand that this is more than just "losing weight." Something has to change. I'm not sure what or how, but hopefully we can all figure this out together.
It took me a long time to admit that I had BED. I think that at one point, long ago, I even realized that I had a problem, but I denied it until it got completely out of control and affected my day-to-day living in such a way that I had no choice but to admit that I had an ED and get help. Some days are harder than others and for those difficult days this group has been a real lifesaver for me. One thing that everyone here has told me over and over again is that BED is not a life sentence...this does not have to be who we are and how we cope. There is hope, there is a way out. After all is said and done and we are recovered and living a happy and fulfilling life we can look back on these struggles and see that we are stronger and better people for having overcome this monster!
Stephdawn, thank you for your support and if you ever need anyone to talk to, I'm here for you.
Laine, it took me a while to realize what I had as well. I had read the term BED before but never thought that is what I had. When I finally recognized I had some kind of problem I looked into BED more and I must say it wasn't really an easy thing to accept. This website has helped me more than anything else iv tried so far and I'm very happy to have all of you to encourage me and give me hope