I quit smoking 2 years ago when I was pregnant with my son. Lately I've been feeling really stressed and overwhelmed with the desire to smoke. I thought after 2 years I wouldn't have such strong urges to smoke again but it's ridiculous how badly I want a cigarette today!! I feel like just going and buying a pack but feel so guilty because I don't want to expose my son to that! I don't know what to do but the thoughts of smoking are taking over my life!!
I quit about 5 years ago and i still think about it. Heres my truth...i believe i would feel better mentally and emotionally if i had a cigarette i would love to smoke a cigarette i know it would feel good. Im sure i would relax more and just feel better to have that comfort of something i could rely on no matter what i feel but i know what the price is and its too high. I know it would shorten my life, cost a lot of money and the list goes on so i guess there's good and bad. I chose not to give in and smoke it was a lot of hard work to quit i suffered for a long time getting through that and i dont want to do it again. You are probably looking for stress relief and comfort and you know smoking will do that the truth is we really like to smoke its addicting and a very unhealthy habit. All you can do is chose not to do it look for other enjoyable things and think of things that you can do with your hands like drink water from a bottle because you use the same motion as smoking that might pacify you. The water bottle works for me i can keep taking sips off of it just the same as bringing a cigarette to your mouth but instead your bringing water to your mouth. I carry a water bottle in my purse everywhere i go and i chew gum. You have to get creative find what works for you. I will probably think of smoking the rest of my life because it was part of my life for so many years so really there isnt anything wrong with you for thinking about it.
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@Littleturtle1000 that is a really good response! I really appreciate that! I already feel better, I had to just go in the bedroom and cry it out earlier. I have depression and anxiety so smoking was such a great relief, especially when I was anxious. I had a bad day today and was desperately needing some stress relief and my boyfriend occupied our son so that I could just have some time to fall apart and deal with those emotions. I still want a cigarette but I don’t feel like I need it like I did earlier tonight!!