A few months back i had a girl with whom i fell in love with.I loved her more than anything in this world and she really meant the world to me.Unluckily she was interested in some other guy who is actually my friend.But last year we had a breakup coz i couldnt take it anymore as she loved my friend but i loved her and most of the time she ignored me;we just went along for not more than 5 months i guess.....Although i wouldnt call it a breakup coz we still talked with each other over the phone as "friends" but i never said 'i love you' again to her...And after a year or so,i dont know what the **** went wrong with her that one night she said that she still remembers and misses those nights when we talked all night long + she made me remember all those nights......Of course i lost my temper and asked her to STFU but still she continued....the next day i couldnt help it and i sent her a 'i love u' sms and she was like,boy what do u want from me now do u want a relationship r what..and i said that it was u who was crying last night,u had feelings for me last night(she pretended as if noyhing went wrong)........
Huh,my friends asked me to just calm down and dont fall in, once again.
In the end i had no other option but to say goodbye to her coz it was really enough now from her side...I mean come on man, you first love a guy and then you have feelings for the guy who loved you once the other second!!!!!
I had really forgotten all the memories but that night really changed things for me in a number of ways.
I dont talk to her now but i really miss her even though i know i should hate her and she has pretty much affected my college studies.I dont know i feel ****ed up!
confusedMe - that is tough, and let me tell you i know what it is like to fall into someone and have it happen in college. i let a boy take over my life and i wish i had been strong enough to let it go. but it is a lesson i am still learning from.
As hard as it is you have to be realistic about who she is and what your relationship is with her. You don't have to hate her, and its ok to miss her, but think about what you miss, is it her or the idea of how she made you feel. focus on yourself right now and open yourself to meeting other girls. you will see that you will find a healthy love that is mutual and full of balance. but right now, enjoy being in college and with your friends. just focus on you.
Hey confusedMe..
I'm really sorry to know tat.. I know how hard it is to forget some 1 whom u love more then u.. Same thing has happened to me..
I loved a guy but nothing worked out.. SO hav to break up.. In 1 way ur gal is doin someting tat will take u away 4m her (Liking other guy). In my case v both love each other so much but had to do this sacifice 4 good of others..
Listen if she really loves u she vil realize her mistake.. IF not she is not lucky to get a nice guy like u who loves her so much..
Lookin at u i feel u r a very soft boy who melts by just a call 4m her.. But listen Life is not so soft.. V hav to b strong..(Tats wat i learnt 4m life)
Just Look around.. There r ppl who love u so much.. Ur frnds, ur family.. U r still in college.. Just enjoy ur college life.. These r da golden days ( I swear on this).. Just enjoy ur life.. There r many beautiful things in life..
confusedMe, Life is not easy.. It really becomes bitter at times.. I feel wats da point in being in love when love hurts more then nething.. :-( :-(..
Hav to c life n hav to keep goin..