(I really need help!) I'm 14 years of age .. Okay, so, Am I transgender? I don't consider myself transgender, but while looking at a nude of a girl I know, I thought to myself ''What would it be like to have a pair of boobs, or a vagina? --- Do I want them? (Only for a day to masturbate) -- -Holy Crud am I trans?!'' I asked a couple guys I know and they said that ''Id become a girl for a while so I could masturbate ... '' And I thought ''Huh, I guess I'm just paranoid huh?'' But I cant get it off my mind. I love martial arts, football, fighting (Funny types of fights e.g birthday digs), I love my voice now its broken some more, I love the fact my penis is growing, I get all exited when I grow more hairs (You know what I mean) and I really like being broad shouldered so I'm more masculine (Im already very masculine I find) but I can't get these thoughts out of my head... I sit there and think ''Right, do I want to be transgender/transexual, for more than just orgasmic purposes...?'' No, I don't think I do, im 98% sure I dont. I don't want to be putting make up on, getting my hair done ect -- Not me. Can anyone tell me If they think I'm bi? Cheers...
*Transgender* Not Bi! Sorry
Also, the thoughts cause me to question myself all day long
That doesn't sound to me like you're trans. It sounds like you're quite happy with yourself as you are right, and that you're pleased with the changes that are happening to your body with puberty? One of the big things with being trans is often being unhappy with those changes, feeling like your body's growing into something completely different from how you are inside. It sound to me more as though you're just curious about what it would be like, which seems pretty natural to me.
@Davii I also had HOCD, and since these thoughts the HOCD has died down ... A lot! Thanks for the reply, means much!
@CanAnyoneHelp some people who get HOCD also get OCD about their gender identity (TOCD) if you’ve had the one this could just be the OCD kicking in again… There are also support groups on this site for OCD and HOCD, perhaps you’d find those helpful… wishing you all the best mate
I would agree with Davii about this, sounds more like a thought coming from OCD, and maybe it is targeting your identity?