i really wish i could meet up with people in person and talk about everything that im going through. instead of online or ringing strangers i.e crisis teams , i just wish i could meet up with people iv met and just got for a coffee or something and just get out and interact with actual real humans instead of looking at these computer screens and mobile screens. people who understand bpd and also understand my situation thats the crictical thing. people who understand how i feel. and not judge me because im a man i should act a certain way. i.e be emotionless and be all macho. right now im has weak has a pane of glass thrown against the floor. Lonelyness is a killer
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I know how you feel. It can feel like no one understands, even though here is a whole group of people that can. I dont necessarily consider typed word actual talking, specifically since it doesn't display emotion, which we are all full of. The doesnt include the idea of the amount of time it takes to receive a reply on here.
exactly typing is a very hard way of getting across your emotions because its emotionless. reading words are quiet brutal anyway. like in person you can understand if someone cares just by little things like the way they look at you to things like the way they are sitting , i might be talking total rubbish but i get a real sense of emotional connection with someone in person by the small things, the way they sit and look at you and how they interact with you. on websites you dont get that connection so most of the time you have to really force yourself to try and connect even if the words are the most amazing thing youve ever read, it still lacks something. i dont no if iv made any sense with all that. i guess the lack of interaction with people leaves me full of want.
@ashthebroken1 Ash I think you have made perfect sense with all of that. Living in this generation means we live isolted with all out electronics games and phones. It’s an electronic world. I myself have a tv, and a computer and that is it. No phone, I do have a wii, but just for netflix… I think that if you really mean what you re writing, believe it with all your hear that is going to come across…yes the world is a lonley place, but it doesn’t have to be, yes the world is a scary place, but you have to just take it one day at a time. I believe in you and i think that you can do whatever you decide you need to do. Take Care and Take Heart, we will all be here to support you if you should fall and those taking baby sties usually do fall some, it’s the nature of the beast.
I completely understand this. It can be so lonely. Feel free to private message me if you want to, we're all here to support each other
Thank you , i always thank people who comment on anything i post because often i feel like im babbaling on making no sense. so its nice to see even tho its heartbreaking things its also nice to see at least theres people out there who understand what im saying. such small things in life mean so much
I understand you, too, Ash. Having BP is like having a hurricane living in your mind. There's the fear of being 'found out' and stigmatized for it, while wanting to be open and have ppl accept who you are. This who mental mind-@#%! is heartbreaking intself, let alone the cruel world 'out there'. I have found that only a vry few people will accept me for who I really am, and the rest just want to run away, and they do, and that makes me cry, bc I AM A WORTHWHILE PERSON, dang it. I don't need you to love me. I just need you to BE THERE.
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im always here to talk to :)
hello ash ihope things have been getting better for you sometimes people say things they dont mean to when they feel overwhelmed tired or frustrated with the person that they love none of our partners are gandi or mother theresa they have their own lives and sometimes we have to let them take time out otherwise their own mental health breaks down and the words they use cut through but they are attempting to comunicate thier own dismay at what they have begun to feel overwhelmed with .they are trying to shock us into realising they are aperson with feelings too and that they can not alweys be perfect and to have arelationship means that both people count not just one and both people have feelings not just one love hurts but onl;y as much as we allow it and in our fragile state we have not alweays learnt the right skills to nurture another and ourselves in the right way dont give up hope dear fellow sufferer your pertner probably felt the pain as much if not more than you ...hope things are improving for you it good to coerm somewhere wher we can relate to others asnd know we are not the only ones who struggle with similar things ......
hello can you vent away on this group im always need ing to vent i feel so alone withtisillness i feel dead and so lost i dont know how to cope withthis instead of doing bad things well i mean healthy things i feel very deteached disconected if you will sotrry aboit my spelling
@Pianoforte - Wow just Wow at what you said, left me thinking very much and what you say is true because my partner has actually said a few sentences that you written and yes it is very hard to try and take myself out myself if that makes any sense, and try to see it from her side and her feelings. that is almost impossible. i blame her for alot of things and she has openly admitted that the things that have gone wrong are her fault and i never play the blame game EVER. but i do with us and i dont no why? maybe its because im hurting so much and she has admitted thousands of times if only i had listened to you. and im like what are you trying to play a game or piss me off or something thats my reaction and that is awful i know. because i should be loving and want to be but something inside me wants to destroy everything i love. if i lose her to this problem then i will seriously be in a place iv never been before. because she is my rock my everything. and without her in my life its just like taking the air away.
@Jarvais hi there yes you can vent as much as you would like to , we are all here to listen and help eachother. i think there are some key words you cant put in the posts or messages. well when i put certain swear words this message comes up blocking me from posting it until i change the word. so yes my friend you can vent away. :)
@ashthebroken1 -I do agree talking in person does help. I’m not really a phone person because I would rather see facial expressions and body langue of the other person. It helps me in conversation.
hello I will talk to you I need to talk to someone right now if you want
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Dude you can call me if you want day or night, insomniac, I have BPD and it kicks your a$$ and presents as a bunch of different "conditions" so it's hare to accurately diagnose, but you know as soon as you read the signs and symptoms that YES that is ME. At least I did. I took a DBT class and found it very beneficial . Sometimes just venting to a real life listening person who you don't know is great. you get it out and you feel better, I also journal because essentially I am alone in ny "insanity" I have a father who moved on a long time ago, I have a mother who does her best, but lives in KC, I have 2 full brothers I rarely. rately, talk to and i have 2 half brothers that I don't talk to at all oh and same for the 2 stepsisters, I have roommate who is so grounded it's sickening and he DOES NOT understand mental illness, it just isn't a part of his world. I don't have any close friend I see or talk to every day, but I have a companion dog. She mainly keeps me sane, so I am in the same boat you are "neuroses" and we can travel and talk together if you want......let me know.
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@ everyone wow thank you for all your messages and comments in this post, its nice to see so many warm people out there. in such a cold place emotionally and every other which way. Thank you to everyone and id like to talk more with everyone of you on here and on other social sites or more :) thank you to all
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