I recently had sex with a guy like just started dating, but

I recently had sex with a guy like just started dating, but have known for a year. My last relationship was with a Narcissist, who to me now l know never existed. My question is, Is it normal that l want to have an orgasm every time I have intercourse to the point that l will bring out my vibrator to help me catch up to my partner. I don't insert, I just use it on the outside. He enjoyed the turn on and the explosive climax.

Well the question is, why do you want to have an orgasm every time you have intercourse? Surely there must be a reason behind it?

I think its because of years of sexual frustration and lying about having orgasms. Trying be a man pleaser and lying to build them up.... so after years of no orgasm, l feel like l deserve one EVERYTIME... YOLO, LOL