I slip, and make mistakes. I always think I've got it all together, and I'm bright enough......a dangerous combination. And because I have had...fairly good willpower most of my life, it reinforces the belief that I can handle things, I know what I'm doing, etc.....
So my thing is pretty much life long, dabbling in multiple substances......and more and more I'm leaning towards believing that basically, sobriety is the way to go. Being sharp and healthy and clear headed......
But I slip......
You can only do your best everyday. If you slip, start again. It will get easier.
Thanks. Yeah I'm in that conversation of being less and less thrilled with it all. I started smoking pot at 13. In my 40s now so the whole world has been a part of my life for the majority of my life. That conditioning needs to keep changing....
@Harpua what sort of support do you have around you? Have you thought about counseling and meetings to help you along. I understand i started abusing substances round about 13 too.
Well, herein lies a bit of a conudrum....programs want you to be fully on board. I don't know how fully on board I want to be right now.....
Wait a minute, you are a mushroom! ;)…
I think that when we use substances at young ages, when our brains are still developing, is not a very good idea, and even marijuana…while I still have it, it’s not some totally harmless thing with zero downside. There is downside…
And thank you…
Good morning. :)
I'm learning, I'm trying. I get in my own way more than anything else....so I got more to go for sure....
@Harpua how are you today? You are doing great. Yes sometimes we are our own worst enemies when it comes to our health.
Hi there. I'm ok thanks. I'm much better than I used to be that's for sure. It's been a long, slow journey........I'm not where you're at. I still have attractions to some things, and give in. One of the best things I did was basically give up drinking. That seems to be some sort of all around trigger and more and more I don't like the way it feels. It's like getting fueled up. I still have an occasional couple of good beers but I'm more sensitive to all of it.
Right now I'm doing alright. Thanks....:)
@Harpua one day at a time, you got this. You may always have attractions to these things. Good on you for cutting back your drinking. That was a big issue for me also. Not to mention i liked it. I am glad that you realise your triggers and are working towards overcoming them. You are doing great 