I started seeing my boyfriend almost two years ago and he hi

I started seeing my boyfriend almost two years ago and he hid his ED from me for 8 months before moving in with me. Since he's told me and we see each other daily, I try and be really supportive and understanding. I drive myself crazy reading everything I can and try and communicate with him, but he won't see a doctor. He orders pills online, but it's gotten to the point where he doesn't ever want to take them and when he does it just feels like having sex with me is his chore. He doesn't let me even make out with him anymore because he just tells me nothing is going to happen. I don't intend something to happen everytime I just want to feel close to him. Then when he gets frustrated with himself he tells me I never do enough to make him want to take a pill. I'm so in limbo on what I am supposed to be doing and I'm to the point that when he does take a pill I just get myself wet and let him do it because there is no foreplay and I try to convince myself everytime to get on top and make it more fun but I'm drained and lost all feelings of being sexy.

I'm trying really hard to not let this ruin our relationship but it really hurts, especially when I wake up in the middle of the night to him watching porn and doing things himself.

I'm 30 and he's 38, I feel like I'm loosing a big part of my sex life as I used to always be ready to go with a high drive.

I guess I'm just looking for some advice. Thanks everyone!

I want to say it's nothing you're doing wrong. When he tells you you're not doing enough, that sounds more like denial on their part. I've had to deal with ED for several years now, and I've always tried to reassure my partner it's not their fault; it's nothing they're not doing, or whatever. ED is VERY HARD to accept and deal with, I understand, but please don't believe its your fault.

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