I stopped going to chat groups that involves jacking off on cam. Recently someone I've met from a chat group contacted me and asked if we could be friends. I was hesitant at first because he reminds of the times that i dint want to remember. We talk and call each other. Things are starting to go pretty well. He just confessed to me that he think that he likes me and i honestly feel the same with him. The problem is sometimes he wants me to jack off with him in front of the camera since we are living far from each other. I don't want to do it yet sometimes i feel tempted. There is always a part of me that feels that if i dont do it I might lose him. Im starting to see my worth as person in him yet now I'm starting to question whether this is bad or good for me.
This is something you are trying to avoid, so why would you pursue someone who is encouraging you to go down a path you are working to not go down again?