I think the reason I haven't been officially diagnosed is because therapy is literally the only place where I'm not on edge feeling like I want to rip someone's head off. Usually when I see a therapist we talk about the good things that are happening in my life. If it's not that I'm comfortable with a therapist, it's that I'm too afraid to tell them everything I think and feel because I'm afraid they'll have me locked up for how absolutely insane I am. I know the only way to get the right treatment is to have the right diagnosis, but I don't know how to get that.
Maybe you could say in therapy what you just said here? Hugs :)