I first joined this sight 2 years ago when I was suffering fron a horrible adderal addiction and I got no support from my parents. I tried speaking to my friends but they had no idea how to help and the truth was they couldn't. I had to do it cold turkey and with the streangth I had to create for myself and what NA gave me I made it through. I went through addiction, depression and 3 suicide attempts and I'm now finnally sober. But i still feel like an addict! Everytime i take a pill I want more. I take Riddlin now and I always want more but I don't fall in. But I do take Xzanex for high anxiety and have relapsed 2 times with it. I am sober again but it just worries me I hope I never get to where I was 2 years ago. Why do I still want to be dependent on drugs?!? I want them so badly but then I don't want to start all over again.
This is like feeling secure,it is like additional hope to feel good, but one thing we forget, there are consequences. God bless you for being so strong. Do not give up, no matter what. Stay secure in your faith and you will win the battle. God bless you.