I was talking to my CBR/PSR about what had happened with my

I was talking to my CBR/PSR about what had happened with my ex and how he was in that 9 1/2 yr relationship the whole time without me knowing at a restaurant tonight. Sitting at the table behind her was his mom and his aunt, but my CBR didn't know it. She was looking right at me. He has shown me pictures of her before, so I knew it was her and she knew I knew too. At the end of the conversation, right before I left I told my CBR that I have never gone from loving someone to hating them like this. His mom mouthed, "I'm so sorry" to me and I got up and left. I was almost in tears. Not because of the pain he caused me, I am pretty much over it, I was only telling her because I hadn't talked to her about it yet and it was important to my treatment at that moment, but because I could see the disappointment in him mom's face and I felt horrible for her. He has to deal with that now, not me. The only question I still keep asking myself abut it all is, "How can ANYONE look someone in the eyes and do something like this to someone they say they care deeply for, for entire year?"

It sounds like it was a very emotional meeting, and that you have a lot to process. If only we knew why people can so easily make the decision to hurt someone they love.

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He told me he cared about me but didn't love me.