i wasnt supposed to live this long. i feel like im so behind

i wasnt supposed to live this long. i feel like im so behind in my life progress and it jus brings me down farther. i just feel like such a failure. god knows my family sees me as one

We can be so hard on ourselves. Everyone does things in their own time it does take some of us longer to get to where we want to be but that doesn't mean a person is a failure. Not everyone is the same and has the same circumstances right? Maybe your family doesn't see you as a failure, it could be they wish some things were different right now but that's not the same as thinking you are a failure. What kinds of things do you think you should be doing or have had done by now?

Hang in there. Everything is going to be okay.