I wish someone could live my life for just one day...so that they would understand.
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yeah I can relate to that. though the more I think about it the more interesting it sounds.
Sometimes it is just so so incredibly hard to express what is happening with me.
I often feel the same way but then I think I would never wish this pain and suffering on anyone. Yes, it would be wonderful to have someone fully understand but the cost is too high.
I get the impression that most people think that the things that bring me down in my life are just figments of my imagination, and that bothers me...
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@MagiaMoonlight whoa whoa, no way. Though your imagination is also important, I know mine is. And it is fine however it is.
When I find myself in such terrible pain, coupled with the confusion of my brain not work right… it can end me up very alone. I want to connect and share this. It can just all hurt so so much.
Can totally relate to that statement. Unfortunately.
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for me, the greatest function of my mind's eye is visualization. visualizing what I would like to have happen. Also visualizing, like, the brains processes.
As far as a day dream, I like dreaming about traveling in interesting places, dreaming of being with other people I can love and trust, and sometimes dreaming of thoughts of frustration.
I guess also thinking about just how bad it hurts and trying to normalize that.
Sometimes when I go for walks out in the country where my house is, I pretend I am someone else. I act out whole scenarios as a completely different person, speaking out loud and everything. Its a good thing nobody sees me because I am sure I must look crazy, talking to myself and all.
When I am work I dream that the file gremlins will come up out of the files and invade this office. Every day the battle is a little more intense, but it always ends the same way. The gremlins win. It makes me smile.
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Wow interesting. Do you have any art medium you prefer? Like painting or drawing or even writing. You really describe some vibrant images. It might be fun to express them through art and see what happens :)
@sizzlebiskits I used to draw all the time, then I just lost the patience for it.
@tay1_23xoxo Only because I have been young and lovely before. I wouldn’t be 16 again for anything in this world. And for what its worth…I think you are handling your own life just fine.