I wish that my father could see that he is narcissist but this is just a dream. It will only end when he dies or pushes me over so far that at times I just want to die.
My father is a psychopath and a Narcissist. I don't have anything to do with him these days.
I can't tell how old you are but I think you're relatively young? Either way, i'm afraid that, if your father really is a N, it is a dream, as they can't empathise. It sucks but there it is.
Even though your natural instincts will be to seelk reassurance and love from him, it's not worth the pain of continual indifference or, worse, having your natural need for love turned against you in a manipulative way. You have to protect yoirself by detaching and finding that love with people who truly care for you.
It can be done but you will always have that little bit of you that misses your father being there for you when you needed one.