I woke up today hoping yesterday was just a dream. I didn't want to get outta bed. I had to take the dogs out and I hated leaving the house I wanted to hide. I could feel the judgement from a mile away.
Have you ever worked so hard to allow people to think you are good enough and then in a split second have someone take it all away? I feel embarrassed, sick, sad, and I hate myself more today then I did yesterday. Everything has changed and I realize now that even though I made the mistake and was given a "second chance" that it may not have been what needed to happen. I feel as though now I am holding back someone I love very much because I am to scared of what will happen next. I can't ruin someone else life just because I ruined my own.
1 Heart
I am so sorry you are going through this. If you want to talk about it and process it with the group we are here to listen, lend a supportive ear, and just be here for you. No matter what, you deserve happiness, love and respect, never doubt that. It might be hard sometimes for us to even give that to ourselves. However, we all make mistakes, no one is perfect.
2 Hearts
I understand how you feel. And I know that no matter what I say, you won't feel better but I can tell you without a doubt that one day everything will be alright. I wish you all the best, please keep going out and being active cause then you get even more depressed when you stay inside, though I know how much it sucks to go outside. Still please do.