I'm 19. I was sexually assaulted by my fathers best friend a

I'm 19. I was sexually assaulted by my fathers best friend at 14. At 16 I wanted control and I started sleeping around, it became an addiction. Sex became a vice. I never saw it as a real problem until I had sex with a married man... The act itself wasn't the eye opener it was the realization that my actions could hurt other people and I did it anyway. I have zero self control. I feel like I can't stop, and I don't want to. But I fear the consequences if I don't, and I recognize the addiction because I see tendencies in myself that I have seen in my alcoholic father. This is the long story short version obviously.

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Hi, are you in therapy at the moment? If we dont deal with issues they manifest into something else. Im sure you know that sexual abuse and addiction go hand in hand. I think maybe if you deal with the abuse you have a better chance at dealing with your addiction.

Actually yes. I am in therapy. I was recently raped by another man time as well. So I have a nagging urge to have sex with someone else. Or a few someones... I don't know how to fight this. I know if someone was readily available I wouldn't think twice.